Good afternoon ladies,
We are running late. Just got home from the care center a little while ago. Fern was more alert and not in a lot of pain today, so we hated to leave her, but Kevin needs to go to work. I know he is exhausted, since he stood beside his mom's bed, holding her hand for over 2 hours straight this morning. They have chairs, but she wanted him to hold her hand and it made it too difficult when he sat.
She ate almost a cup of yogurt today and drank some juice. That is big! She hasn't eaten anything in days. She still has a tight grip. She was able to communicate with me enough to tell me the pain was starting, so I could get the nurse. I am so happy, because Fern's estranged sister was there today. She said 'Marcina' very plainly. We feel all is ok between the two of them now. Kevin was so relieved. He felt guilty because he broke down when his mom said she loved him. I would not wish having to watch a loved one slowly pass, on anyone. One thing they added today was oxygen. It has really helped in my opinion. Sorry to just keep going on about this, but this is my life right now.
I know you understand.
Not much else to do today. I may cook a pot of beans. I also have some ground beef thawed, so will cook that. I feel exhausted, so will probably take a nap. I hope my mom is in a better mood today. She was pretty nasty yesterday. Normally I can handle what she dishes out, but my emotions are shot at the moment. She doesn't seem to understand why I love Fern like a second mother. I guess she wasn't that close to dad's mom. Oh well, can't deal with it right now.
I hope you all have a blessed day. Remember, spring begins two weeks from today!
Blessings,
Winona
