We had a flock of 6 ducks. We're raising them for meat and eggs. We slaughtered our first meat duck this past weekend and even though we didn't name them and I never touched them other than to transfer them from one place to another, I'm having a hard time eating it after seeing it alive and I'm not sure why. I'm not attached to them at all. If they were gone tomorrow, it wouldn't bother me, but I can't stop picturing it alive and the thought of eating it turns my stomach. I know I'm not the only one here raising meat. Is it just cause it's the first time we've done this? Does it get easier? I can buy a duck at the store and cook and eat it with out any issues. It's silly.